Wednesday, December 10, 2008

whistle worthy


I went on a blind date with November 4th. November 4th wore a suit, a dress, a scarf, a beret, and sandals. He was a darling creature that the whole world was watching. And he was the whole world, at least at that moment to the people in Errigal 7063. We met in the kitchen of my flat accompanied by representatives of Germany, Ireland, Northern Ireland, France, Sweden, Belgium, Spain, England and the United States. They brought chairs, food, and spirits to watch the miracles unfold that night. We gathered around a meager black Sony television to listen to the American presidential election sing its tune.

The first few notes to flow out for this concerto were disappointing but expected. The British broadcaster examined the growing number of little red states, attempting to make sense of our convoluted system of voting. I missed Barbara Walters. I missed the smartly dressed Anderson Cooper. I even missed Geraldo. The BBC looped the same footage over and over of American voters "fresh" from bubbling ballots.

And then, the glorious blue state choir began to sing. The numbers grew in Barack Obama's favor, and as the sun came up, we wiped tears from each other's faces, saw stars in each other's eyes.

Monday, November 3, 2008

red, wound 'round a wheel





Ok, folks, here's a long one.

Once upon a time, a girl born in a burrow in North Carolina's deciduous woods bore a great weight in her heart. Bored with her life on a hill, and refusing to bear this great weight no more, she boarded a steel bellowing bird. It hung in the air for six hours and five pence before touching down in Ireland, her new home. The weeks passed quickly, a flurry of singing 'Galway Girl' arm in arm and talking sunrise philosophy in the kitchen over tea and the last bottle of wine. Then came the snow flurries. The Emerald Isle grew cold. Her spirits fell slowly in a town smaller than her burrow, and the rain fell fast, and the rain fell fast. It was time for a new adventure. It was four thirty, and she was going to Berlin.

On Wednesday, 22 November, we sped off to Belfast to spend the night before our flight early the next morning. We rode with Marlene's flat mate, his brother, and a German couchsurfer they were hosting that week. Since it was Marlene's birthday the next day and I had never been out at night in Belfast, it was quickly decided by our Irish counterparts that we would do a pub crawl. Needless to say, I am now quite familiar with the city.

Thursday we ran into a bit of trouble with our plane reservations, and spend a lot of time waiting. Here is an excerpt from my journal at the time,
Inventory of surroundings: -four men in brilliantly neon fluorescent yellow windbreakers -children throwing out the judgemental eye -lady in a wheel chair holding a cane -a fire hose immediately northwest of my left shoulder: red, wound 'round a wheel -3 fire extinguishers -5 signs regarding fire safety (beginning to wonder if they notice how much it rains here) -an orange sign about carry on luggage in Italian: 'bagaglio,' 'passegero,' 'ragionevole' (it could also be about the finery of pasta cooking)

Through a circuitous route involving Bristol, we made it to Berlin. In the airport, we met a young U.S. Army R.O.T.C. guy. He didn't like Obama, and I didn't like him much, but he told us some great ghost stories about a castle in Edinburgh. Marlene's group of six friends greeted us at the U-Bahn stop. Felix played "Happy Birthday" on his guitar, cueing up right as we stepped off the train. I love taking trains! We went to bed early Thrusday evening after a hearty fill of pesto pasta, sweets, and broccoli pumpkin soup brought over by Marlene's father--a Tai-Chi expert, hospital nurse, and very liberal German man. She shares with him an adventurous spirit, and they both speak their minds passionately, which I really enjoy in people. They're truly alive, burning their way throuhg life and warming the hearts of everyone they meet.

Friday we picked up Luke, Marlene's eight year old brother who is perfectly fluent in English. He too has that internal energy that wakes up everyone around him. We took the U-Bahn to the Holocaust memorial near Tiergarten (one of Berlin's myriad parks). The memorial consists of what seems like an acre of dark grey stone boxes of varying heights arranged linearly on a sloping cobblestone plane. Basically, it's a labyrinth of stone walls. Walking in to the construction, the ground slopes downward, and each block is taller than the previous, so it gave me the feeling that I was shrinking. It's eerie. But it was nice to have little Lukie there, lighteneing the mood with games of hide and seek and jump the creek between the stones.

We walked by the American Embassy to the Brandenburg Gate. blah blah, we did a lot of touristy things that day, but there were break dancers outside of the gate, and that was fun to watch. We popped in and out of a few museums, but basically kept moving. On the way to the gate, we came across a memorial with four intact pieces of the Berlin wall. Marlene explained the story of the wall to Luke in German, and I read the plaques that were in EnglishI ate a lot of Turkish food.

Friday night, we ate sushi with Marlene's family. Her mom is Irish and teaches English at three different schools in the city (vocational, business, and a middle school). She has a funky homey apartment on Schonleinstrasse. Both parents have a good taste in music, and we talked about politics, movies, and emo-kids (they kept syaing emu) until it was time to go out. Then we headed out to a house party with her friends/ roommates.

The party was huge, but the hosts had cooked so much food for everyone. After a couple hours, we headed out to an electro club called Mobel Fabrik. Ok, the thing about this club is that to get to it, you have to really know where you're going. It sounds simple, but we took a bus to some strasse or another, walked down an alleyway, through an old rusty wrought iron gate, into a barren courtyard, through a grafitti'd door, down a winding staircase (cue the pulsing beats now), a carpet hanging over a doorway was pulled aside, and boom! There we are being asked for five Euros, and having our coats whisked away to the coat room. We danced all night, and got back Marlene's flat about the time the sun came up.

Saturday, we slept late. I went to some art galleries and record shops on Torstrasse, and then went back to the Marlene's flat to clean up and prepare for her birthday/coming home for a visit party. The party was a lot of fun. The DJ was a friend of Marlene's and her best friend's boyfriend. I helped make the Spanish omelets and some Sangria. They also made pasta, tabouli, pesto pizza, and some sort of vegan cookie balls for the hundred plus crowd that came. I met Germans (of course), Americans, a Turkish girl, a Mexican girl, an Australian guy, and some people from Spain.

Sunday, we cleaned, and then I headed via bike to the Floh-Market (flea market) at Mauer Park. The bicycle chain came off when I was about half way into my thirty minute journey, and I wandered into the S-Bahn station with my hands covered in grease. High point of the trip. I picked up a lot of souvenirs for friends and family back home, and wished I lived in Berlin so I could decorate my chic apartment with all that funky junk. I also sipped gluwein, which made me twinge with nostalgia for last Christmas in Georgia with the whole Brewer side of the family. We stayed up late on Christmas Eve waiting for the little ones to fall asleep, sipping gluwein, and speaking our truths. I ate at Fat-Ass Pizza, which claimed to be authentic New York pizza. When they heard I was American, they gave me an extra piece fo' free!

Monday, I met up with a friend from the party in Kreutzberg. He is a political activist and showed me around some historically important sights like the Green Party's headquarters. He told me the story of the Kreutzberg May Day riots in 1987, and explained how that region of the city has matured since, but kept a firm hold on its revolutionary spirit by demonstrating every year. We parted ways, and I ventured to the East-Side Gallery in the rain. I walked the painted 1.3 km of wall, the longest intact piece of the original divider. Unfortunately the murals have been severely damaged by grafitti and tourists who want to take a little piece home with them.

Tuesday we got chased by the U-Bahn undercover train police, and landed safely in Belfast greeted by a blanket of snow.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

doughnut!

Tomorrow I begin the journey to Berlin, Germany, and I return next Tuesday (28 October). I will take the train with Marlene to Belfast where we'll meet her friend who is putting us up for the night. Belfast is a despondent city, but I have honestly never been with someone who lives there. Perhaps it has more to boast than the Europa hotel (bombed thirty times in three decades) and the ship yard that birthed the Titanic. I hear that they have Christmas markets starting the second week in November, which makes me think of my mother.

Marlene wants to hitch hike back to Coleraine from Belfast on our return day. That will be an adventure. I have never hitch hiked, and I can't imagine that this country has the best November climate for thumbing down the road.

Time to sleep and start adventuring now...

Thursday, October 16, 2008

look up paul muldoon. now.




I am tired of keeping three journals, but living one life. Okay, I don't really keep this one up so I suppose it does not count, but it's the only one accessible via clicking. If I clicked at my green suede-y beauty of a book/journal, it probably wouldn't move. However if I clicked at my Moleskine, I like to think it would click back. Today I bought tickets to see Ryan Adams in concert in Dublin. I think my life may be complete.

Claire visited last Thursday through Sunday. She is the kind of person that fits the term "lovely" in all its splendor. I took her on a supertour of the northern coast. We went to Belfast. Rain. We took the train to Derry. Rain. But, then we went to the Giant's Causeway Saturday. Sun, breeze, the softest, most pillowy grass I've ever laid my head upon, and a bluff! made for a great day.

By showing someone else the sights, I realize how truly dingey all the cities are here. They have a rugged, dirty smell and way about them, as smoky and confusing as this country's history. And the rain is constant -- the sky as grey as the car exhaust, the ever present mud puddles. But I'm quite content in the midst (and the mist) of it all. The hills are still green, like huge emeralds sprinkled around a little post apocalyptic city. Okay, it's not quite that bad. But the walls. The walls are terrible -- physical manifestations of centuries of conflict. Oh hey, here's an idea, let's just put up a ton of walls, and the violence and mutual alienation and oppression of opposing groups will disappear. Yeah! I get it. I get the reasoning, but I hate those damn walls.

That's why I'm going to see Ryan Adams. Because there are still places with walls. What are you keeping out of your garden? Wolves and Catholics?

I sat in the daffodil garden today. It's rather difficult to find on campus. Mainly, because there are actually no daffodils there for 11 months out of the year. But to its credit, there is a lovely bog, stream and waterfall. I wrote a poem about someone who only makes left turns, and gets left behind. I'm still miffed at the UNC Creative Writing Dept. They don't deserve to be capitalized. They will henceforth be known as the unc creative writing department. I wish there was something smaller and more insignificant than lower case. That's harsh, but I'm allowed to be harsh. They won't let me take the advanced poetry class, and now they are doomed forever, banished to the bog of lower case letters. It's not even that bad. I know some fine poets who live there.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

hey i have an address

Molly Claire Brewer
Accommodation Service
University of Ulster Coleraine
Cromore Road
Coleraine
Co. Londonderry
Northern Ireland
BT52 1SA


Send me some love.

Giant Footsteps




After a two week, ahem, sabbatical? from this blog, I have some stories for you. And I promise not to end this one in a corny Death Cab lyric. Okay, let's go!

Our first weekend in Northern Ireland, the International Office sponsored a tour of the coast for all us foreigners. We went to the Giant's Causeway, the Carrick-a-Rede Rope Bridge, and DunLuce Castle. Here is the story of the Giant's Causeway if you care for folk lore: http://www.thenorthernirelandguide.co.uk/giants-causeway-and-legend-finn-mccool

This was really a beautiful sight that I would compare to some of the canyon lands in the western part of the U.S. Thousands of hexagon shaped stones form stair steps out into the blustery Atlantic. They are framed by dramatic moss covered cliffs creating a little cove. The night before the trip, a bunch of internationals went out to The Anchor, our now favorite pub for gathering. An Irish guy scoffed when we told him where we were to go the next day. He said we would just waste our time marveling at these little funny shaped rocks, and we would look back at all the pictures of said little funny shaped rocks and wonder why the hell we even went. Then he had another pint.

The rope bridge was an adventure. The castle was pretty broken.

Claire comes next week! It will be so nice to see a friend I have known longer than three weeks. I'm not particularly homesick, but I am certainly missing North Carolina in the fall. I know the leaves are slipping from the trees and settling in fiery crimson and gold blankets on the ground. I also think about my friendys back in Orange, Person, and Wake County and the ones that are scattered across the globe.

Last weekend I went to Liverpool and Manchester on a solo trip. Liverpool has a lot of flavor, but the latter was tasteless, in my opinion. I emerged from the trip feeling extremely independent and secure in my abilities to survive in a strange city with little quid in my pocket. The genuine goodness of humanity at heart keeps surprising me at times when I need it. The kindness of strangers guided me home in Sydney last summer and found me again in Liverpool when I was in a bind.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

"The Victorians were right about the allure of the coast..."


Today I danced with dawn,
shook the shadows, bucked the rain,
hitched a lift into the town,
with an Irish lad and dame.

Changed my money at the bank,
John Dunlop is on the five,
He reinvented rubber tires,
emancipated how we drive.

And then I spoke with China,
learned a little Cantonese,
We shared fruit and plans for this world,
'til I ventured to the breeze.

A pint with French companions,
and another with Americans,
sparked a lively chat on techno,
(nothing rhymes but Spamericans)

I saw just two stars tonight,
lonesome in the clouds,
Perhaps you see them too?
like two lovers in a crowd.

Monday, September 15, 2008

banana slugs



Yes, there are banana slugs in the grass. In fact, there are beaucoup. The slugs are large and plentiful. They seem happy in this wetland. This was a possibly the longest day I have ever experienced. Our plane was delayed, our bus was delayed, but our spirits could not be tampered with. We enjoyed a meet and greet of international students. The conclusion: the French are the best dancers!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Hunting and Gathering

I leave for Coleraine, Northern Ireland in five days. Until then, I am picking up bits and pieces from the floor -- scraps of paper, photographs, trinkets and treasures I cannot live without -- to pack away into my suitcase. I haven't done official Momma-approved packing yet, but here is what I will not leave without (for now):
-moleskine notebook and sketchbook complete with all my jumbled thoughts and doodlings from 2008
-new green journal (thanks, Kat/Cha-Cha/Aunt Tere/Uncle Matt/Andrew)
-"peace, love, and happiness" bracelet from the Momma person
-polaroid camera
-pens, oil pastels, arty stuff, blah blah
-mood ring

Okay, so I haven't got much yet.

I am also searching out old and new friends to say goodbyes. It will only be three months. Three months is a trimester. It's the estimated recovery time for ankle surgery. It's a quarter year. Really, three months is nothing at all, but considering that I've never spent more than six weeks away from home, three months is a mountain.

I welcome the climb. After a summer in Chapel Hill peppered with adventures, and a brief fall sprinkled with confusion (but mostly peppered with spilled table salt from Spanky's), I could use a change. Actually, now I could use a total transplant, and here it comes.